I hired a female sex worker for 2 hours just to hug me and hold me and I gave her flash cards of what to say to me.

I'm a 22 year old male. I'm introverted, I had one girlfriend who cheated on me 8 months ago and since then found it incredibly difficult to socialize. Not that many people made an effort. I'm simple, I dont have social media, I have a few friends but they don't really speak to me much. I'm average looking. Pretty insecure since my breakup. Im in college and on weekends work a 12 hour shift at a fast food restaurant to make ends meet.

I dont know I felt really lonely, so I knew of a girl who works with me who told me her friend is doing sex work. I found her on Facebook and she told me how much she charged. Also asked me a bunch of questions about my sexual health. I never planned on sleeping with her I just didn't want her to find me weird.

Anyway we met at a hotel, I told her I didn't want to have sex I just wanted to be held and given words of affirmation and care. She agreed and I paid him. I gave her flashcards. They all said things like im proud of you, you're doing so well, you're strong, did you eat, are you okay, I know you can do it, etc etc. And she just held me until our hours was up and then I bolted and I feel so ashamed and had to tell someone. But I don't speak to anyone so here I am.

Edit: why are you all mad and calling me an incel?